Dear dad, it's been seven months,
But, wounds in my heart, still young.
Felt blessed to have you in my life,
From "I'm done with this life" to
"I'll make this life worth living,
I've come so far.
People see me with sympathetic eyes,
I thank them for their kindness yet
I want to portray a clear picture that
"I don't want sympathy",
"I'm a strong young woman."
Remembering those days,
tears roll down all the way through my face,
I wipe them yet again,
And again and still feel grateful that
'atleast' I had you in my life.
The course of pain has yet changed,
has yet transformed.
Amount of pain cannot be measured but can be dealt
and felt in whichever way I want it to go.
Few months back, I used to wait all day and
would run at my heels to open the door for you,
My lips would make a perfect one- eighty degree
angle upon seeing you,
My lips still make a one- eighty degree angle,
but this angle is for the memories that we made.
For the days spent together,
For the time spent together,
For those conversations that both of us had;
unaware of the fact that those conversations
would end so soon.
From a kid, I've grown up into an adult now,
Dealing with pain and life somehow.
The places and people are all the same,
The only difference is that I see them alone now.
Few months back, the front seats of the car
were occupied by both of us,
And now, it's me alone.
Few months back, I would wait for you to come home,
Wait is still the same,
The only difference is that now I wait
for you to come in my dreams.
The course of pain is yet changed,
Only to be embedded in my heart more deeply
with every passing moment.
But now, I've learnt to deal with it with a
beautiful curve spread across my lips.
Yet, the meaning of life has changed for me now,
A promise is made to my inner soul by my mind
that I'll make this life worth living,
I'll pour meaning into it,
I'll pour love into it,
And I'll pour kindness into it.
Life will continue till my time comes,
Only difference is that I value it more now.
I value memories more now,
I value precious moments more now,
I value the beauty of relationships more now.
'Gratefulness' and 'Mindfulness' have become
my two new best friends now.
I miss you dad!
Every single moment,
But, I'm grateful to god that out of
the whole world he chose me to be your daughter.